yea, i dint make the team, i feel like a loser, yes thats me, cant control my egos, i really hope jem and kangjin's ok! Bros, remember, we are a team. and i think its unfair, some of them dint even fight for the team and they got in. I still got another year, but not for kumo and jem. I am not afraid to say, i cried for almost an hour today after they announce the results, i am sad over so many things..my bros..these things keep coming to my mind, u are a FUCKING LOSER, FUCKING FAT FUCK, FUCKING RETAINEE, FUCKING BASTARD, FUCKING FATSO, FUCKING CLOWN.. damn i am a FUCKING GOOD FOR NOTHING! my feelings all mixed up, damn it , this a damn freaking pain thing. I still remember what ryan told me today, even if i dun make the team i must be proud of myself i lost so much weight, and i said no, i want to be nothing but the best! but anyways WE ARE ALWAYS A TEAM! U GUYS BETTER PLAY WELL gotto sleep early today, tmr rebound for chinyang ! I SWEAR I HAVE NEVER FELT THAT FUCKING PAINFUL !
